melissaur

What do I do, when you don’t know what you’re doing? How does that work? I’m a risk taker. Things just work out that way. I put belief in things. I don’t know why, how, when did that happen? Is that right? Probably not. But it’s so easy, it’s so heavily in my nature….what am I doooooinggggg…..ughhh. Gonna give it up, give it a while, give it away, because things are not what you see, they’re not what they seem, they aren’t how you’d love them to be…I have to be a bigger person and turn my cheek, on something that never even turned to look at me, so why do you always think that that’s the way things work out, during the longest run-on sentence of all time? I want to be sorry for the way I behave sometimes as if things just will always run in my favor because I always believe it with all of my heart, but I don’t know how to explain that to anyone else, I don’t know if it’s ever something I’ll want to fix, because I’ll always want it to go that way, but those other people are so lucky, because they can live with the way that things are and the way they always will be, and somehow that will work out in the other’s favor, and this will never make sense to you.