November 2011
1 post
October 2011
1 post
March 2009
3 posts
Things are really turning around. I believe I may be onto something. TO BE CONTINUED!@#!
February 2009
3 posts
What I want in life:
to be successful in my career. To find a place that I feel 100% comfortable settling into for my settled life. To be challenged daily by my work and the people around me. To always have my close friends. To be happy and mutually in love (some day in a far away land). To have good pets.
Not too much to ask for, right? Not that I’m asking for it. I’m making it happen. Because...
What I realize though
is how unnervingly passionate I am about things, about everything.
December 2008
1 post
Still
Things change. Time, people, situations. But life moves on. The very little constant in my life is my path to finish school and be successful in what I so strongly desire to do. Making bad decisions is part of life. I’ve made my share of them. I feel like I’ve experienced and learned a lot in my short little life. Still, sometimes it’s easier to make the wrong choice. Even if...
March 2008
1 post
I've
done it again, surprise. Be prepared to be surprised. I’m so full of them. Sometimes the best part of life is living it, doing it, experiencing it, and making grand gestures.
February 2008
6 posts
It's better there
Oh the heartland.
She is
I AM SO READY FOR THE SUMMER. I hope I can get a job for the month before Europe. I hope I can get a job for the month after Europe. I hope that I spend a lot of good times at home. I won’t have to come back and move until a few days before school. I don’t know what I’m going to do for storage. It’s going to be soooo expensive. Ugh. But not ugh=this summer. I’m pretty...
Hope
I see you there. Kiss the stars for me please. I’ll be in my dreams. We’ll meet there, just wait for me. It’s probably only another story. You’re not my only hope but sometimes I root for you with curiosity in mind.
so let go
I am not a product of consumerism, I am not infantilized. I miss you so much. I wish I documented my whole life; if I had another, I would watch it over. I have the capacity for original thought. I appreciate life. I miss the summer, I miss my freckles. I want to sit on my roof all evening with my eyes as a camera, and remember every second of the sunset. I want the air to blanket me. I want to...
It is
I put too much stock in things. I have unreasonable expectations.
I love you this much
I don’t have much to say. It is really difficult to delete your identity from the internet. Lately, the unfolding events of my life have come at increasingly bad timing. No longer do I consider these things luck, just life. I’ve been wondering how in retrospect I don’t understand where my feelings come from sometimes. Or if they exist. Or if I instinctively place them there to...
January 2008
6 posts
Thursday, January 12, 2006:
“I truly believe and feel that I know where I should be. I am there physically, but not emotionally. I am no longer allowed to be there emotionally. Is this it? Is this the part where I leave for good? Is this the last of my happiness in this place? That is so disheartening to imagine. I want it to not be true. But every time I turn back, it is. my heart is beating a million miles a minute...
whew
Well, that’s it. I fly back home to Boston tomorrow. I have been here for FOUR weeks. It has flown by. Because it was such an extended stay, I feel a little more settled in here, so it’s always a little bit harder to leave. For being such a baby, I’ve never cried once leaving home. Not when I moved, not anytime I’ve gone back. It’s weird, because I really never...
“Maybe not everything is supposed to last forever. Certain things are like...”
Spring in January
I am more than thrilled to announce that I have felt my first 70 degree weather of the year, on today, January 7th. Seriously, getting out of the house, walking my dogs in a t-shirt, seeing people out and about, it really helped the whole winter blues thing. Winter is so long and cold and depressing to me, really. I need to be outside and to be warm and I am soooo glad for this freak warm front. ...
Heeey there.
It’s another one of those times, one of them that I haven’t had in a while, and one that I can’t force out. I guess sometimes random interaction/conversation with people can strike this feeling up with me: a little retrospective, very self-aware, and ready to write. Sometimes I think to myself, where was I? Where would I be? You know, the internet has literally changed, for...
December 2007
1 post
Goodbye love-melissa.com
So after many good, heartwarming years, I’m saying goodbye to not only my webspace, but my very first domain name. I’ve lost touch with it and I certainly don’t use it to the degree that I feel would make it worth keeping. I was merely seventeen when I bought it, after many years of using free, ad-ridden web hosting and redirected urls. I have come a long way, and although for...